It’s been ages since I last wrote something! Time to bring some life back to this blog of mine!
I have been putting off adding a new blogpost since the last 3 months now. I’ve been endlessly procrastinating and even now when I write, there is this continual voice in my head telling me to save this draft and get back it to it at a later time. No, I am not falling for that one again!
In the overall context of this blog, it’s actually ironic why I couldn’t bring myself to write anything new. If you read my first blog post, you would know that my lack of productivity stems from recurring depression and sporadic lack of motivation. But why this lack of motivation?
(on a side note- why should I actually DO something, when I can just pass a judgement in my mind about someone else’s work and feel superior about myself just like that – more about that in a later post 😉 )
To be honest, I was falling prey to the pitfall I mention in my post #1, taken over by my fearful ego again! An example, An old friend of mine came out of obscurity and is doing actual meaningful work out of his regular 9-5 grind. He gives motivational lectures to secondary and high school students. My ego felt so jealous, it was horrifying! It wanted to retaliate. Hey, I want recognition too, I want to have a nice little social media page too, I have to get back to my BLOG! There was so much ‘I’ going on, I was bound to just laze around and do nothing of value. I kept telling myself, “huh he is never going to make a difference, his ideas are not original, his thoughts are so outdated! Honestly, sometimes there is so much ‘me’, ‘me’ and ‘I’ in my stream of consciousness, my ego sounds like like a broken record going meeeee! You guessed it, a melody comprising of just one note, isn’t really a masterpiece.
Skipping through some online product trainings at work, I read a reference out of the new testament, which served as a much needed blow to my ego and to bring myself in line with what I wrote in my first blog. To quote Colossians 3:23 (NIV)
“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord”
And yes now I am back at writing. This BLOG is intended to help you out and not just a personal vent to satiate my own ego. Motivated as being an extension of God’s blessings to mankind is a continual free flowing source of motivation that we should tap into. Using that to get back into writing, I am working on my next blogpost entitled “The illusion of just right” and hopefully you will get to read it soon. It’s something I have struggled with all my life and I want to help you out of it! I’m sure everyone falls prey to it!
Until next time (shouldn’t be long!)