A bit about me

Well, I’ve always been among those people who really struggle to say anything about themselves. For me like so many others, puberty bought with it, an exceeding introversion, an unhealthily high sense of self-consciousness and unnecessary reticence.  Introversion is not a bad thing, however, sometimes it can be a product of lower self-esteem, of lesser self-worth, which makes the individual think that he is less important that the people around him. In my case, this was further compounded by an even more distorted self image. I thought that my ideas and thoughts  were too complicated to be understood by people around me. Obviously, this all was blatantly wrong. I vacillated between mental states of heightened self-importance and then feelings of worthlessness.

Anyways, to cut it short, I believe that introductions certainly are in order and specifically more so, since you are on my blog and reading through my articles. It’s important to have an idea of the author, whose ideas and thoughts you are parsing through. So, I’ll spare you the rhetoric and write a few lines about myself.

My name is Waqas Gull. I was born in Lahore, Pakistan and grew up all over the country. Since my father was in the Army, we would be posted to different stations every two years. This meant we had to pack up every two years, and move to an arbitrary location at the mercy of the Pakistan Army. So, I went to a variety of schools in Lahore, Multan, Peshawar, Karachi and Rawalpindi.  It was a feat maintaining a friendship longer than two years, with lack of cell phones or even landlines that could facilitate long distance communication.

I disinterestedly went to school for a major I wasn’t interested enough in. I went with the momentum my parents and friends set up for me, did my bachelors in Electrical Engineering and worked with a national cellular provider for three years. However, being stuck in a loose fitting vocation, and by the misfortune of having an excessive wanderlust I called it quits and came to the US for graduate school. Unluckily, I didn’t fall far-enough from the tree. I did my graduate school in Telecommunications again and spent two years in Maryland, where I met my future wife to be.

Last year, I moved to Seattle, WA for work and have been living in the great pacific northwest since. I’m almost used to the rain. I share a home with a nurturing wife and an adorable daughter.

I am an avid reader, and my reading interest spans psychology, religion, philosophy and spirituality. I am particularly interested in religious ideas and how they still hold their relevance elegantly even to this day and age. I love to read comparative religion and the development of religion throughout the ages, however I strongly believe that all religious ideas are equally and simultaneously valid in their fundamental spirit. I read a lot about psychology and how increasing your self-awareness can be a powerful tool in the journey of self development.  I am fully anchored in the belief in God, and the idea that our existence has meaning and value. My journey is even more interesting, since I was an atheist before.

I had a very profound, terrifying and soul-crushing experience at age 26,  which I in retrospect I consider a “rebirth”. I have never been the same since. A large part of me making this blog is based on my experience which I will write in excruciating detail in a post soon.

I love to make music, and have spend a reasonable amount of time working on my craft. I can play the drums, the keyboards, the guitar and sing a little. I have dabbled in recording, and set up a home recording studio, which I had to leave back in Pakistan. I’m a little out of touch at the moment.

I like to workout and strive to stay fit. However, recently I have come to believe that fitness is a necessary outcome of an otherwise well aligned and healthy psychology. Health is an overall outcome of a well-aligned life.

The reasons behind this blog are deeply selfless and selfish at the same time. I like to dis-part with profound life truths I’ve learned that are comforting to both you as the reader, and me as the writer.

If you liked what you have read, have any feedback, comments, suggestions or criticism, please reach out to me at “waqasgull@gmail.com”. I would be thrilled to hear from you!